Weigh In Saturday!

Hello everyone!

Things have been really busy this week for me but they have also been very good.  I weighed in this morning at 253.5lbs!  Woohoo!  A great loss.  I am so happy.  I really gave it my all during my workouts this week and didn't treat myself with food. I am very happy with the progress.  I have lost 2.9lbs this week which is amazing!  What a great way to get things moving again.  

I have to admit that after tracking every morsel of food for a week I knew exactly what needed to be done to get that scale going in the right direction again.  I guess I had gotten a little lax, ok a lot lax, but I am glad to see that the scales didn't head up up and up like they would have before.  The check in over a A Nu(de) Motivation really got me thinking about my commitment again.  I made a commitment to myself that I would treat my body with respect, that I would feed it fuel not crap and that I would work on my personal issues that keep weight on.  I have kind of abandoned that since school got back into full swing.  I think it's really important especially heading into the Christmas season to be cautious of stepping off the path. I am really going to have to focus and keep my goal at the front of my mind.  It is so easy to forget that not having that treat laid out in front of you is not going to kill you.  I find myself thinking lately, this is not the last time you will ever see (insert food), have just a little and move on.  My friends who are trim and fit do this with ease.  They don't deprive, they just eat reasonable portions of their favourite indulgences.  That's is what I will try to do as we head into the season of treats.  I will indulge in reasonable portions.  No need to eat 5 cookies when 1 will do.  It's a great concept.  Let's see if I can put it into practice. 

Well my husband and I are going to bask in a gloriously relaxed day.  Maybe read a book, watch a movie.

Enjoy the day!
Cheers!
Leah  

A New Post over at A (Nu)de Motivation!

Just stopping into say that our progress pictures have been posted over at A Nu(de) Motivation.  Hop on over and take a look! 

Cheers!
Leah

So this weekend kinda got away on me. We have been crazy busy getting organized to start the 2nd part of our renovation. Things were going well till my husband put a rusty nail in his foot. Needless to say we've been sitting at emerge for almost 3 hours now and it dawns on me that I can blog from my new iPhone. Hooray!!!

This week was ok my snacking is still out of control and there are simply no excises for it. I want this and I need to start acting like it. Groceries are done and meals planned out for next week so all I do is stay out of restaurants and this will all work out. I also think my body has gotten use to my workouts. I must add the weight lifting back in and ramp up my effort during my classes.

Oh yeah weight this week is 256.4. Here's hoping next week goes better.

Leah

Tracking Calories = Obvious Issues

So true to my word I have been tracking every morsel of food entering my mouth since yesterday.  Let me tell you today was a true example of where I am screwing up.  When I am tired, I just make horrible judgment calls.  Writing it down is really (forcing me) giving me the chance to look things over.

Yesterday(Monday):
Breakfast:

Shredded Wheat Cereal, 2 biscuits (1 serving) 160                  
Milk, 1%, 0.75 cup      83                    
Brown Sugar, 2 tsp unpacked   23      
Breakfast TOTAL:       265    


Lunch:

Cucumber (with peel), 0.5 cup slices     7                      
Yellow Peppers (bell peppers), 10 strips           14      
Carrots, raw, 0.25 cup, strips or slices 13                    
Turkey breast meat, 150 grams             156                  
Goat Cheese, Soft, 1 oz            76                    
Kraft Poppyseed dressing, 3 tbsp         135                  
Cracker, Triscuit, 0.9 oz           115                  
aero (43g bar), 0.2 serving        47                    
Tim Horton's Large DBL DBL, 1 serving          230                  

Lunch TOTAL:             791                  


Dinner:
Tortellini Pasta Dinner with tomato and turkey sauce, 1 serving            700                  0          
Dinner TOTALS:          700    


Snacks:
Can of Coke, 1 serving             160    
Snack TOTALS:          160    

 TOTAL for the DAY: 1,917       TARGET: 1,710 - 2,060



So overall I am on target calorie wise.  However, look at my choice right away I notice lots of sugary things the coke, chocolate and the coffee.
Now lets look at the crappy work I did today.


Breakfast:
Milk, 1%, 0.75 cup      83      
Brown Sugar, 2 tsp unpacked  23       
Shredded Wheat Cereal, 2 biscuits (1 serving) 160     
Breakfast TOTALS:     265

Lunch:
Cucumber (with peel), 0.5 cup slices     7        
Yellow Peppers (bell peppers), 10 strips           14      
Carrots, raw, 0.25 cup, strips or slices 13      
Turkey breast meat, 150 grams             156    
Goat Cheese, Soft, 1 oz            76      
Kraft Poppyseed dressing, 3 tbsp         135    
aero (43g bar), 0.2 serving        47      
Tim Horton's Large DBL DBL, 1 serving          230    
Lunch TOTALS:          677

Dinner:
Beef Stew, 2 serving     472    
Whole Wheat Bread (2 slices), 1.5 serving        270    
Margarine, 1.5 serving 53      
          
Dinner TOTALS: 795

Post workout meal (why oh why did I do this):
Almonds, dry roasted, 0.13 cup whole kernels 107    
Cashew Nuts, dry roasted, 0.13 cup, halves and whole             102    
Pumpkin Spice Donut, 1 serving            260
Post Workout Meal: 469 (AHHHHHH!!!!!)

Snack:
Chocolate Milk, 1 cup 201    
Plain Lays Chips Baked, 1 serving        130    
Snack TOTALS:          331

TOTAL for the DAY: 2537


Again it's the sugar that is killing me.  I must must must trim down the refined sugar and add in some fruit.  I certainly will not be posting all my food all the time but just wanted to take a look at it. At the very least I can clearly see where I am going wrong and therefore can make major improvements to the eating.  What I am really missing since the fall weather kicked in is fruit.  I generally speaking don't like fruit.  I love berries and had them in smoothies all summer long.  I love baked fruits too but those are often found in baked good.    I need a warm comfort food that involves fruit and is low cal......hmmmmmm I am on the hunt now..

Cheers!
Leah

Saturday Weigh In and a Plan

So today I am up 0.9lbs from last week.  I can tell you exactly why too, we ate out 3 nights this week, I bought my lunch 2 days this week and my snacking was out of control.  I am not happy with myself because I know how to do this.  I want this.  I am willing to lose all my evening during the week to workouts but I seem to be throwing my food intake to the side.  I need to be more accountable with my food.  Monday is November 1st.  I want to be in regular size shirts by the end of November.  That's the goal.  So how am I going to get there?

Step 1:  Keep going to the gym 4 nights a week!  This is the easy part because I am loving it all of it! 

Step 2:  Do weight training once a week after Zumba. Gotta start somewhere with this.

Step 3:  Count all calories that enter my mouth.  This is the hard but easy part.  I have to do it everyday all day long hard part.  Easy part I have a touch and I have a calorie counter right on it.  I will post calories on Friday for each day.  I know this is the key right here.  Range of calories for me based on my exercise and reaching my goal of 190lbs by Aug 15, 2011 is to currently stay between 1,710 - 2,060 calories per day. 

So that's the plan.  I am not saying that I will count calories forever but for this month it's necessary.  I need some more progress.  I am too busy and need to have a target for food otherwise I eat mindlessly.  Not a good plan.  So November 1st I will start.

Hope everyone has a wonderful Halloween.  I am off to a party tonight and must go find a costume!

Cheers!
Leah

Reflections

So yesterday we went to the in laws for dinner and to visit with my SIL.  Dinner was wonderful and it was nice to visit and catch up.  I find though since I started on this weight loss journey, I am for some reason or another noticing when people lose or put on weight.  It never even use to occur to me, unless the changes were drastic.  As I sat there having dinner, I wondered how often when I would come home during university did my family and friends see me and think: "Oh my she's put on weight again".  This is exactly what happen to me yesterday, I felt guilty for even thinking it.  Why I'm not sure.  And I certainly was not judging the person in anyway.  It's just that I noticed and that made me so uncomfortable.  It left my head full of questions. 

No one ever said anything to me, even though I knew they were thinking it, as I was gaining weight.  Would I have wanted someone to say something? NO.  Did I realize how bad the weight gain was? No.  I was in complete denial as a packed on the pounds, slowly moving up one size at a time.  Blaming clothing makers for making their sizes smaller and dryers for shrinking my clothes but the reality is that I was getting larger and not wanting to face the truth.  I probably wasn't till mid second year when I had to face the reality that shopping in regular stores was officially over for me.  It was depressing, I cried, I vowed to change but instead packed on even more weight.  By the end of second year I was wearing a size 20 and loss the desire to make a change.  Such a contrast to how I feel right now.  

Right now, I would want someone to tell me I was gaining weight even though I'd be upset or annoyed with them.  Now I am not saying in public, at dinner or in front of anyone, but maybe over a cup of coffee with a good friend.  Where concern was expressed sincerely.  As I lose the weight, family and friends have expressed their relief that I am FINALLY losing the weight.  They are telling me that they were worried about me but not sure what to say.  I find it interesting that people can tell you afterwords but not during.   We have no problem, or rather I should say I have no problem, telling my parents that I am worried about them because they smoke.  That I am concern they will die too young, and get very ill.  So why is it, that I would be scared to tell a friend their weight is shortening their lives?  

I leave you with thoughts still swirling in my head. 

Hope you all have a great day!

Leah

ps.  I bought a pair of new jeans size 16W!  I am thrilled! 

Weigh in Saturday!

So it seems that since I started working I often don't have enough time to weigh in on Friday mornings but if I don't I will get it in on Saturday.  Today I got to see great success vs last week.  I weighed in at 255.5lbs.  I have admit for a minute I was disappointed because I weighed in at 256lbs on about Tuesday so the loss did not seem as huge to me until I went back to my weigh in page to put it in a realized that I loss 2.9lbs in a week.  Funny how quickly your perspective can change.  

Today should be a nice day, my progress reports that are due Monday are already done and my sister and brother in law are in town visiting.  I am going to take a quick trip into town to do some shopping for a bday present for my SIL, and to order a few bathing suits from Sears since I don't think I'll find a good one on the rack anywhere in my little town.  And I may just treat myself to one pair of pants that fit properly, I know that big pile of regular 18s will fit in just a few more pounds but I desperately want a pair of jeans that fit right now and right now a 18 plus fits that and that my friends is so exciting. 

I finally received a bunch of wedding pictures yesterday from the photographer ( I waited for ever to order them, like 2 years. lol) and they are gorgeous.  I can't believe that I already weigh less they I did in those pictures. On my wedding day I weighed approx. 265 and I say approx because I stopped weighing myself when my diet failed, and of course it did it was a diet.  They are the most beautiful pictures and it was the best day of my life thus far.   

Alright, well I am off to enjoy the day!

Cheers!
Leah