Weigh In and An Update

Sorry for my long absence but this week was insanely busy!!!  Lets start with the bad.  My weigh in was not good.  I am sitting this morning at 262.2lbs after being at 259.9lbs last week.  I am not being too hard on myself though.  It was my birthday this week and my first week back at a full time job.  The birthday had cake and treats multiple times and the work had my stress levels soaring!  I will admit that my eating has been a little out of control.  Tones of snacking and treats and such.  So this week I must get back on game.  

On the bright side, I made it to all 5 of my workouts.  I am thinking perhaps some weight training might be necessary but I think I'll wait it out another week.  I am already feeling a little overwhelmed with all I am committed to.  I am hoping that next week I will really settle into a routine at school and feel like things are up and running.  

Oh well one minor set back is not going to derail this train.  

Cheers!
Leah

OMG so busy!

Thank you all so much for the birthday wishes!!!

Ok so keeping up with getting my classroom up and running, doing my lesson, going to my fitness classes, having a birthday and then having a baby shower to go to all within 3 days.  Let's just say I am sooooo exhausted.  I have made it to all my workouts this week though even though life is crazy.  I am so enjoying them.  It's the few minutes of the day where I can just not think too much and do what the instructor tells me to do while having a little fun.  And line dancing tonight was way way way more fun then I thought it was going to be.  You know when you don't realize how much you have been missing something until you do it again.  That's how I have been feeling about dancing.    Alright well i gotta get ready for bed.

Night everyone!
Leah

Happy Birthday to Me!

Well today happens to be my 28th birthday, on the 28th which means this should be my lucky year.  Things are going pretty well leading up to it so I can't wait to see where I'll be at in a year.  Posts will likely be short and sporadic this week as I get back into the swing of working full time plus getting all my workouts in.  Zumba kicked my butt yesterday, in a good way, I can feel it a little today.  Alright, I gotta run.  Hope everyone is well I haven't had a chance to read very many blogs this week. 

Cheers!
Leah

Weigh In Saturday? Ooops!

So in my frantic hurry to get to work on time I forgot to weigh myself before I got out the door.  But I got to it this morning.  And success I weigh 259.9, YAY!  I am thrilled with my progress.  This was a particularly stressful week for me and I still experienced great success.  

To say that I am excited about my new position is an understatement.  I foresee my best teaching year to date.  I just can't describe how happy I am.  I have a wonderful class, a great schedule and fabulous colleagues.  What more could a girl ask for?  Ok so the hour drive each way sucks but that's ok, I can live with that.  It was like coming home after a horrible vacation.  Only thing to do now is get organized and get on task with my students.  So much to do now!  YAY!  

Well I have a weekend filled with renovations and classroom planning.  I probably won't touch base again until Monday. 

Have a great weekend.
Cheers!\
Leah

I can't sleep.....ugh.

Well I figured since I can't sleep I may as well fill you in on what's going on with me.  Turns out that after much frustration and negotiating, I have been permitted to take the full time teaching position for the year without losing my permanent job.  YAY!  It was really exciting.  But now of course I am overwhelmed with what needs to be done at my new school and therefore I can't sleep.  See I share my classroom with a woman whom I have a difficult time working with.  She's very smart and great at her job we just have very different approaches.  I am sure it will all work out but until things get going I'm a little anxious about it all.   

On the downside of the my life today, we are getting and tone of rain.  Over 10 cm in less then 12 hours with nothing but rain in the forecast for the next few days.  And well apparently, my roof leaks in a few spots.  F*CK!!!!  Pardon my language but my gosh.  I need this like I need a whole in the head.  Not at all.  Hopefully it's just a few things we can patch for this year.  Redoing the roof is NOT, I repeat NOT in my budget for this year.  Oh well such is life.  I mean really when I look at the big picture we are pretty darn blessed.  But it's hard to look at the big picture when you got buckets around to catch the water your roof should be preventing from getting in.  Sigh. 

Another upside to my life, ( I think they call this a bad news sandwich or something like that), many of the girls at my work are taking on some new healthy habits.  I am excited that I am not the only one at work taking on this adventure.  It's hard when your the only one.  Last year there were many and by many I mean 5 pregnant women on a staff of 18.  There were soooo many treats around all the time.  I absolutely love this school and can't wait to get started.  It's kinda like coming home after a horrible vacation. 

Sweet dreams,
Leah

Boo for Yoga, Yay for Line Dancing?

Ok so I actually really like yoga but the instructor on Wednesday night was changed and the new instructor is very nice but for the love of God she talks way too much and doesn't move through the poses fast enough.  So I have decided rather then being frustrated to try something different next week.  They offer line dancing classes at my gym.  I know not my usual thing but I was watching them yesterday and I think it will be fun.  I mean I don't see myself going out to do line dancing in public but I think it will be fun to learn.  Also I use to take dance classes as a kid and I loved them.  So why not try another kind.  It's only 10 weeks, I can commit to that. Oh and it was FREE!  Well I slept in a little this morning and now I gotta run and get ready for work.  

Oh yeah and before I run just a reminder that GREY'S ANATOMY is starting tonight.  Oh how I love that show!  Yay for fall TV. 

Have a great day everyone!

Cheers!
Leah

What a difference 15 weeks can make!

This post will be posted next week over at A Nu(de) Motivation so here's the sneak peak.

What an amazing difference 15 weeks can make in your life.   The changes in my life have been dramatic.  I was a last minute joiner to this group and have never felt more blessed in my life to be part of something.  The changes within me are not only physical, which is becoming obvious to those around me with my 20lbs loss, but also perhaps even more importantly emotional.  

I hardly recognize the woman I was 15 weeks ago.  Her self talk was horribly destructive.  She labelled herself a victim.  She refused to see that changes had to occur inside, in order for the outside to change.  She was tired all the time.  She could not imagine taking a fitness class.  She was constantly worrying about what others thought of her.  

I am proud to say that 15 weeks later.  I talk to myself the way I would a friend.  I don’t beat myself up anymore.  I compliment myself.  I take the time to see the beauty within me.   I no longer label myself a victim.  I have taken back my self worth by airing out my darkest secrets.  I have been working through it rather then running from it.  Finding my voice again for the first time in years was liberating.  I read a book that encouraged me to face my fears, to realize that no matter how painful or hurtful something may have been, it was in the past, it was over, it was gone; only the memory remaining.  By dealing with that memory I have been able to let go of some of my need for constant control.  I am no longer tired all the time. Who would have guessed that adding in physical activity would increase my energy.  That woman, who couldn’t dream of joining of fitness class, takes 5 per week now and loves them.  I don’t worry nearly half as much about what people think of me now.  They can think what they want.  How ridiculous of me to think that they were even thinking of me.  

The contrast is striking.  I love it.  My new life feels so permanent, this weight loss just beginning.  And although I have weeks where my loss is not what I wish it was.  I know that I am moving in the right direction.